Firstly.. my apologies for the length of this post but it's taken me 6 weeks of serious soul searching and 4 almost complete, scrapped at the last minute drafts to write it so I reckon it deserves some air time. I've been trying desparately to figure out my thing for the year ahead. I love to have a word for the year. The last few years I've chosen BEGIN and BELIEVE... these words have helped me so so much. For me they are like a huuuuge hit of inspiration, an instant reminder of what's most important to keep me on track. I also love that the process of chosing my word makes me dig deep. It unearths exactly where I'm at, where I most want to be and what I need to do NOW to get there. Priceless!
Anyway, it wasn't easy this year. Actually it's been mega difficult. Only that I can't stand letting things beat me I would have given up weeks ago. I got frustrated because I'm really quite happy and content but I'm also well aware there are so many things I need and want to work on... balance, courage, health, my finances, etc, etc. But nothing really rocked me like my words have in previous years. None of them felt big enough or inspired me to move mountains and I really really want my word to move mountains.
To be honest I feel like I've survived the storm and all is calm and bright and lovely and sunny now which is very nice... I've been lapping it up for a while now :) But everything has been tossed about and left in a big mess. There's remnants of the much more organised and in control me scattered everwhere. I need to get stuck in and do a big tidy up before I can happily sail off into the sunset. I need to get all those annoying little (some not so little :) bits and pieces of my life in order again, all those things I let slide, all the balls I had to drop. I need to regroup, tidy up the periferals, regain some focus and control. Regroup! That's exactly how I feel. That's it!!! That's my word.....
So I have my REGROUP LIST (my mountain) and I can't wait to tick everything off by the end of the year (ok so it may take a little longer but that's ok :) First on the list is my health and fitness... I've started my morning workouts again :) and I can't wait to be the healthiest me ever. Maybe I'll tackle the whole balance thing next. Or my finances.. budget, set some goals, save for a holiday maybe.. yay!!! And courage.. now that's a whole mountain on it's own but I can't wait to start climbing! Hmmmm... maybe I should look at my time management skills first :)
Oh and of course there's my art but it's always there.. ticking over. My boys and my art and my genie are my constant, my base. Thats just a given.
Anyway that's enough on that.. far out I'm so glad it's done, what a marathon. Can't believe its half way through Feb already :)
Prior to Christmas my genie had been hinting like a sledge hammer for me to do a painting for him. He was quite specific... he's had a lifelong love of all things motocross and so the brief was: ktm orange, yamaha blue, suzuki yellow, honda red, the numbers 65, 64 & 47 and some or all of the words attitude, confidence, balance, belief, commit. He also gave me some sprockets and other motorbike bits to use if I wanted, then said go for it gorgeous!
I'm so loving the outcome and he was blown away when I gifted it to him on Christmas Day which was very special... so nice that I could give back to such a wonderful, kind and giving man.
My very first brush strokes for 2016 were oh so bold. While he was away I (and my genie :) renovated my son Mitch's bedroom. Unwilling to afford the cost of floor covering we decided to rip up the carpet and paint the existing yellow tongue flooring orange... yes bright orange!!! Still can't believe I did that but I am so loving the outcome. We also designed and build the bedhead wall from old fence paling which was a creative challenge and looks amazing. So so thrilled with the outcome.. and my bravery :)